Chanelle Xabregas has had a successful career in fashion. She studied Media and Communications along with Fashion Design before moving to New York where she worked in wholesale for Helmut Lang and Rag & Bone.
“I learned so much about the fashion industry and got to travel immensely, which was amazing,” Chanelle tells THE INARRA. “After three years, I moved home and continued working in wholesale and later moved into buying, which I currently do at CAMILLA AND MARC.
For many years, Chanelle’s career was her biggest focus. “I put living overseas as a priority instead of settling down,” she says. “I think deep down I wanted to be a mother, but it wasn’t until I met Dave that it felt right.”
In 2019, Chanelle and Dave welcomed their first daughter Celeste (CeCe). But when trying for their second baby, they hit an unexpected bump in the road.
“We fell very easily the first time, but for some reason, it didn’t quite happen the same the next time,” says Chanelle. “We went through endless months of trying, tried IUI and eventually turned to IVF.”
“Infertility is hard regardless of when it happens, but secondary infertility does make you question what is wrong with me now? How did it happen so quickly the first time and not this time? The endless questions and lack of answers. Sometimes you wish there was something wrong so that there was something you can fix.”
Chanelle expresses how lonely infertility can be. “Every month feels like a rollercoaster of emotions,” she says. “The hope that a new cycle brings and the possibility of falling pregnant and the sadness when you receive a call from the clinic and hear the words that you aren’t pregnant and have to return to work like nothing has happened. You eventually become numb and try not to get your hopes up each month.”